Kingdom Culture.

When I think of kingdom culture I think of thankfulness, forgiveness, connection, love, perspective, sharing, trust, obedience, and vulnerability.

In my life I hold vulnerability to a high standard, along with trust and sharing. However, I try my best to love others, forgive those who’ve spoken out, and be thankful for the blessings God has and continues to provide.

I would say I used to be good judge of people and groups of people that I could trust and be vulnerable with but in time with repeated instances I would get hurt. I would be betrayed, I would be judged, I would be separated or discrimnated for my sufferings and story. Each time I would add a few bricks to a wall I called boundaries. But soon I realized this wall would be built of fear, it was a wall built on sufferings; it was a wall the devil worked very hard on. 

I wish I could say this wall doesn’t exist anymore but it does. However, I continue to fight the lies of the devil that try to silence me. if I have learned anything from the last year, it is that the presence of God is closer than you think. You just need to step back from all of life’s distractions and listen.

I had the incredible opportunity to experience this several times this week during the ekballo camping trip. I sat back and just listened and watched around me as the wind blew, and the birds flew and talked, so did He.

life is short, its even shorter when you consider that I am on borrowed time. I have been through an extremely long season of hopelessness and depression to the point where I attempted 7 times. Each time God protected me, saved me, and carried me back to safety.

when I woke up in my hammock this week I thought to myself, “Is this real”? I have been fighting for peace from depression for so long that it never seemed attainable. Every time that God reminds me, I break down with gratitude, and thanks for this new life He has given me. This life may be considered borrowed time by my words, or the ER words; but by Gods words its new purpose, a new life that is devoted to him and his plan for me.

Thank you so much for reading my blog, I appreciate everyones support and encouragement through life. Stay tuned for more updates as I continue on this new journey.