During this season I have not only surrendered my career and personal belongings, but I surrendered my life, my plans, my dreams and my heart. Nothing I do is of my own doing and everything that I am is because of God.
I don’t understand and I can’t comprehend fully anything that the father does. However I have experienced His love again and again and that is enough for me to allow my heart to become fully willing and surrendered to whatever it is he has in stored for my life. Chances are that whatever He has planned for my life is a hundred times better and unimaginable than anything I could do on my own will.
I remember a year ago thinking I was to go to college in the fall, in Idaho and live on my own; however the lord had a different plan in mind. He sent me to Hawaii to live in a christ centered community that has become family, He has walked me through healing both within my heart and physically. God has shown me what life is like when you make him the center, and become fully willing. This journey isn’t easy and the lord never said it would be, however I won’t ever be alone in this journey. The lord will always provide for any and all needs that I have.
Whether my need has been financial or spiritual the lord has never failed to provide. One thing to remember is that His timing is always perfect. He will never reveal something to me prematurely and he most definitely will not make me suffer. The lord will only reveal somethign or provide for my need when the timing is perfect.
An example of a financial need being provided in absolute perfect timing was when I owed someone money and I told them Id have it by a certain date. To be completely honest I didn’t know if I would or not but the lord told me to trust in him. As that date neared I began I find myself constantly checking all payment apps and running to the ATM a least once a day. The morning of the date I said Id have the money by I received the remaining balance of the money from an unexpected supporter. I found myself feeling so shocked yet so joyful. This is the fathers heart for all of our needs.
In this season I constantly find myself with just a few pennies and dimes more than id like to admit. I also don’t have a continuous financial supporter, However the lord continues to provide whenever a need may come up. My needs never go unmet and I’m so grateful for everything the lord has and continues to provide.
I have been in Hawaii now for 5 1/2 months now and I have approximately 3 months left of this school, after that we will go on a mainland tour and then it’ll be summer break. I don’t know yet what, or where ill be next September however I do know that the lord will reveal everything in his divine timing. Perhaps I will come back to the island for round 2 or perhaps I will be somewhere else in this world that the lord has created.
No matter where I am I will be praying for a revival. period.
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