Welcome back to my blog! I’m glad you’re here. Today I will be talking about how I have been these last couple of weeks. Between College and my faith I have been extremely busy.
These last few weeks have been long and seemingly never-ending. Between English essays due every week to drama with my middle schoolers I definitely felt like I hit the bottom of my seemingly full cup of energy. I haven’t felt this way since high school and I started to become disappointed in myself. I started listening to the devil loud and clear, however I was quickly reminded through prayer that I am not alone and that through these challenges that God is putting me through I will grow closer to fulfilling Gods purpose for me.
Instead of staying in a low mood, and thinking negatively I decided to restart some of my coping techniques for whenever I am highly stressed. I started running again, this felt amazing. Before I realized I had accidentally ran 3-4 miles instead of just 1. Running is like addicting for me, is satisfies my soul whenever I am feeling stressed out and it also is super healthy. I also try to eat better, less caffeine more water. However none of theses things will fill my hole. I call it my “God shaped-hole”. You may have heard me use this term before, but I tend to use it in reference to how I spend my time. Instead of trying to fill my time with tangible solutions I try to turn to God, wether thats reading His words, spending time in prayer or even just enjoying a walk with Him.
I have also made it a thing for myself, that whenever I start to feel like this I need to do something fun, exciting. I try to live life as if its my last 24hr ever, when the end of the day comes and go I think to myself. Did I impact someone’s life? am I happy with what I have done? have I done anything meaningful? have I been adventurous? if I have answered no to one or more then I challenge myself to try better the next day.
I was spending time in Gods presence the other day and felt him edging me on to look at the prices of flights for Arizona. I wasn’t sure why, and I told myself that would the most stupid decision for me right now financially. However God was definitely making it obvious that right now is actually the best time to do it financially. Yes, I am still confused but im not going to question it further instead I am going to follow through and see what exactly God has in store for me down there.
Thank you everyone for tuning in for todays blog, and stay tuned for updates as far as my trip to Arizona towards the beginning of march!
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